Public Indecency

the one I can't get out of my head

2010-11-01T20:58:00.000-07:00

(good song, annoying video)

team shots

2010-06-22T18:38:00.000-07:00

michael, maggie, jake, rio, mykaila, tim, morgan, sweetie

matt, jon, alexa, nick

maria, nadja, crystal

stasi

hope everyone eventually makes it for a game, it is SUPER FUN. tuesdays at noon!

a good time was had by all--we followed our awesome game with kidd valley for lunch/shakes.

summer is the bomb

workin

2010-06-15T21:43:00.000-07:00

i've been working on a geoduck farm this week! i'm done for a little while (the tides aren't right for another week or so) but i did WORK, holy cow. the best part is i'm getting $10/hr in my pocket for it! awesome. however i am EXTREMELY sore and dirty and sweaty and scraped up and sunburned. geoduck farming was on dirty jobs once... i have yet to watch the episode but i'm gonna download it tomorrow night.

tomorrow i start my internship with teen tix. i'm so excited!!! (it will be mega low key compared to pulling, cleaning, placing, and stomping tubes all day... my back is thanking me)

it's been a weird few days...

getting to spend the past couple days outside working has been perfect to clear my mind.

lots o' love

P.S. come meet my puppy and hang out with me on the beach

amora, amor

2010-06-11T00:29:00.000-07:00

i'm loving the new colors. good choice, manquita.

i went on a road trip with my sister to vancouver to visit colleges. we "visited" WWU/fairhaven, UBC, and simon fraser. and by "visited" i mean drove through the campuses and went to get cupcakes instead because it was sleeting and we're lazy. all in all, a pretty successful two days.
we got facials, which hurt, and shitty sushi/ramen, which hurts now. but we had the time of our lives while doing so, so it's totally worth it in my humble opinion.

i'm feeling really good right about now. happy school's out, though i still have to get used to not feeling guilty. painting a lot. driving a lot.

what do you guys say to finding some time for each other this summer? :)

i love you all.

average thursday

2010-06-10T23:01:00.000-07:00

Listening to a song entitled "Car Crash" as someone rear ends me on 405....Ironic? I think yes...

the new goofball boy i adore.

2010-06-08T09:22:00.000-07:00

STATS

Name: Toby (for now)

Age: 12 weeks

Likes: people, snuggling, dinner, naps, walks, exploring, music, belly rubs

Dislikes: stairs, heights, the middle couch cushion, people getting up in the middle of a snuggle session, harness, teething

Is: precious, clumsy, silly, sweet, devoted (labrador retriever+chesapeake bay retriever+border collie+german shepherd=pretty mutt (: )

Is not: messy, grouchy, boring, loud

is he practically perfect in every way? uh, i think so.

in case you didn't notice

2010-06-06T19:54:00.000-07:00

...it's almost summer! (love you Mykaila)

I dont know what to feel about anything right now. All I do know is that I want to make these few months off great. I have high expectations.

wayyyy too high of expectations...

but, don't aim high and you'll never reach the stars, right?

it's almost summer

2010-05-22T15:06:00.001-07:00

in case you didn't notice.

i'm celebrating...

HAHAHA SAT CRITICAL READING, HOW DO YA LIKE ME NOW?!?!?!?!?!

junior year, you are not nearly as tough as you think you are

put good things out, get good things in... hello internship, yo?

Ring Ceremony. enough said.

good music

sunshine

love love love love

yeah.

just checking on everyone

2010-05-03T21:57:00.000-07:00

how're you all doing?

i have the AP spanish test tomorrow, i'm receiving my horoscope daily, i talk to a nice boy every couple of days (our conversations always end in "i love you honey" "i love you too :))))))))))))))") i really like lentil soup, actually i really just like legumes, the marleys are good calming music the whole family, tension's letting up, i really like chilling at the central public library you know wondering who these people are and what books they're getting and why, might go to an opera at mccaw hall wednesday night but it's more like the dress rehearsal of the world premiere, we'll see...have hella pad thai in my fridge and gluten free pizza on the countertop, yum yum, i enjoy singing a lot and driving myself to school nowadays and getting along and whatnot. i'm too tired to make a longass list but i want to make sure everyone's getting along alright.

i love you all

lights out

2010-04-26T21:05:00.000-07:00

Hey whoever still reads this
mykaila made me think about you guys today
i made this in class the other day
just to show you guys how special you are
my teacher tried to take this from me and
i shuved it down my pants
i dont just let anyone see me

Tired Of Waking Up

Most days the best part is when I get to go to sleep
And pretend I wont wake up because my tears are held so deep
I have tried to cut them out burn them loose from their roots
But the roots are my soul and instead I lit the fuse
It was gone, with the smile and the life as a child
Now Im here now Im there with my life in single-file
It is hard to accept all the tears that I kept
All the blood that was left on the mattress where I slept
All the tears still wont fall and the knife was getting dull
So I wrote it on the wall that the run was now a crawl
Its not me against the world why am I such a child
I don’t have to fight but it feels quite right
In the darkness fuck the light let me scream in the fright
Let me suffer let me die only I will hear the cries
Of the monster inside me he will never let me be
And I came upon this toll because I found my weak soul
And then I shot it cold until its guilty smile rolled

neverendingmathequation-modestmouse

and would you like it if i put you into my world?

2010-04-18T10:06:00.000-07:00

how did i talk to you for four hours last night? how did you keep me laughing?
how am i alive right now?

holy crap. i am way too happy.

Make Love All Night Long by TV On The Radio. My current favorite song.
listen here.

love!!!

swimming pool

2010-04-15T22:42:00.000-07:00

...you can always tell when you've had a rough day when even listening to The Submarines doesn't make you smile.

Mykaila, Olivia- your lists made me feel a little bit better about everything. thank you.

you all are so beautiful and i love you! stay happy, and don't you ever change.

inspired by mykaila

2010-04-12T16:00:00.000-07:00

a list of good things, broski

1. just spent 13 days in france. pretty good.
2. drawing mucho, finally
3. boy! hey hey :) this time i caught me a good one.
4. driving!
5. hair's growing out
6. 3 months-plus of un-fried brain cells under my belt
7. reading tons of books
8. stimulating my brain
9. hope
10. STUFF TO DO WITH MY LIFE.

yeah, only good things.

2010-04-05T18:21:00.001-07:00

hope everyone's spring break is going well...

good things are happening for me, i kind of need to write them down

found a college i adore (lewis & clark in portland)
have a boy type of weird thing going on that is full of goodness and laughs
received my solo
found faith
processing some passions
the dog search is in full swing
i have tons of stuff going on
i feel great about myself
i'm excited for my future
school's going well

ah man! life is so good.

i love starting new projects

2010-03-28T17:02:00.000-07:00

a challenge is always nice

as is springtime.
this trimester last year i was:
1. staying with my brother for a month while my parents were in morocco
2. carpooling with alexa in the mornings
3. getting closer to AC
4. going to mossy rock with mykaila
5. getting excited for south africa
6. mentally preparing for people to go to college
7. happy

let's set the bar higher this year, hey? :)

springtime means new blog colors

2010-03-25T19:43:00.000-07:00

hope green's okay, if you have other suggestions tell em to me

lots of things don't fit anymore

2010-03-25T14:55:00.000-07:00

but some things fit better than ever

announcement!

2010-03-23T12:43:00.001-07:00

blogger is un-blocked at school! yay!!

MY SOLO

2010-03-22T17:08:00.000-07:00

i'm receiving my solo tomorrow!

read about it here.

i'd love to see you there!

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then read this if you're so inclined

it's hilarious

multiple you's

2010-03-21T21:13:00.000-07:00

i like reading my homework to you. the penguin you gave me when you moved into your mom's old house helps me when i cry. you think you can't sing, but i disagree. your cynicism is characteristic and i love it. i admire the hairstuffs you make yourself. i'm sorry your mom lives in south carolina and that you don't want to talk to her. it's hard to tell if your hair is really that blonde. i wish i could make all of your sadness go away. i would like to learn how to be around you again. congratulations on your weight loss. i admire your passion for alaska. thank you for giving me your name at staples, you're cute.
i would like to know you i would like to know you i'm glad i know you thank you for knowing me i wish we knew each other better i'm glad i know you again. i know you. i see you.
te veo.
te conozco.
estoy contenta.
te amo.

Let's move to Canada

2010-03-15T20:21:00.000-07:00

I watched Bowling for Columbine tonight. It's quite shocking. I don't usually think of America as a violent place, for the most part I think of this as a fairly peaceful nation. We're not. When compared to other first world nations it's shocking. What does that say about us as a culture? Michael Moore compares American gun violence to Canadian gun violence, there are approximately 1000 times MORE gun homicides in the US. Shockingly, Canada owns more per capita guns than Americans do.

I don't usually spend much time thinking about guns. But, watching the movie I recalled summers visiting my grandparents, in nowhere Idaho. Ever since I can remember my grandpa has gone hunting. Being a good, red state, American my grandpa owns several hunting rifles. Both sides of the family have a long legacy as part of the NRA. Last summer, one of my Idaho friends was telling me that and his friends put their guns in the trunk so they can go hunting after school. It reminds me how abnormal our little corner of the country is. SO I have mussed sufficiently and have no conclusion so I am just going to stop.

Here is my favorite quote from the movie:
"If more guns made people safer than America would be one of the safest countries in the world; and, well, it isn't, it's the opposite."

P.S. If you haven't seen it click HERE

You Got A Man, What's Your Man Got To Do With Me

2010-03-14T23:25:00.000-07:00

hello public indecency
i haven't spoken to you in a while

but my life is rolling along as usual for march. my hair is longer than it's been since i was nine and i love it mostly, but i've been hating it of late. i've corralled it up in a bun a lot of the time so it's out of my way. perhaps i'll get a tiny trim to clean up the edge, and perhaps when i see those scissors snip the first inch off i'll go temporarily insane and tell the lady holding my hair to cut it all off. i painted my nails pink and it looks weird on my fingers. i took the sat on saturday and i think i did fairly well. i like wearing my mom's old sweaters. i have developed a recent fondness for knock knock jokes. i should read more poetry, i should write less messily. i should stop chewing my lip, but everytime i get nervous or distracted, off it goes and i'm left with small ragged marks. i don't really like country music. my eyebrows are darker than my hair, and my eyelashes are short. i need to drink more water. i love the necklace that i'm wearing right now. my father got it for me in new mexico, and he tries so hard and it is beautiful, yes it is beautiful. i need to be softer on myself, i want to be softer on myself. i've been following every lost road. i'm too normal. i like how my hands look right now. i like how my wrist looks with a watch on it. my eyes are bruised from lack of sleep, but i don't care because i'll sleep in tomorrow. there were only 23 hours in today's day so i'll fall asleep now

i would like to announce

2010-03-12T20:32:00.000-08:00

30 lbs lost
i feel good

fuck studying for finals, i'm going to write angry letters

2010-03-09T19:25:00.000-08:00

So basically I'm agitating.
I just had a discussion over dinner about the Rwandan genocide which morphed into an angry political discussion which morphed into a burning desire to stir shit up.

I'm overwhelmed with people to write to, but I'm beginning tonight with Patty Murray and Norm Dicks, Murray being the senior US senator from Washington, and Jim McDermott being the representative of the 7th congressional district, which includes the Seattle area. McDermott will probably be pretty up for listening to me, because he's had a longtime interest in healthcare in Africa (used to be in the Peace Corps). Dicks is the new chair of the House's armed service committee and everything has to be run through him before it's decided.

And then I'm moving onto less local, more global people. Covering all my bases, you see. Because it's basically BULLSHIT that no one knows anything about genocide (slash apartheid - must not forget that), even though these huge celebrities are endorsing its demise. It doesn't seem to me that many people know, nor care, if Bono or Billie Joe Armstrong are donating zillions of dollars causes like stopping genocide or AIDS. Because it seems to me that people are not educated. I didn't know shit about apartheid till last May, nor did I know shit about genocide until this year. People just hear these celebrities saying words.
I guess I'll write to educators as well. Head honchos in school systems. I'll see if my father knows anyone; it's easier to get through to people and change things if you know the RIGHT people. Which I kind of grumble at, because anyone should be able to change the world, regardless of this little hierarchy.

Anyway. I know Morgan is writing letters as well hey? TEAM UP!
I would love for everyone on here slash anyone who reads this to join me in writing letters, or at least read up on world affairs and understand the bullshit that goes on. Understand the good and bad things that go on and have gone on. Because that's key to changing things and being a good global citizen; you can't change if you don't know what it was like before, you can't change if you don't know what you're changing, and you can't change anything if you don't know how do deal with it. You have to KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON. So regardless of if you end up writing and agitating like I plan to do, just know your shit. Please.

So yeah, that's my shtick. I'm going to talk to Turner tomorrow about who else to speak to, because there are many and I sort of don't know where to go after these representatives.

(i just posted this on facebook btw)

Okay yeah.
Love. I hope this will work.

Roma

2010-03-03T21:49:00.000-08:00

Someday I'll be back

(Taylor- beso means kiss)

nothing like an auntie-grandma and her nephew-grandson

2010-03-03T10:28:00.000-08:00

photo of the day

2010-03-01T17:10:00.001-08:00

some things make bad days that much better

2010-03-01T13:44:00.001-08:00

"I hear you're interested in genocide," the American said. "do you know what genocide is?"
I asked him to tell me

"A cheese sandwich," he said "Write it down. Genocide is a cheese sandwich."
I asked him how he figured that

"what does anyone care about a cheese sandwich, cheese sandwich cheese sandwich, who gives a shit? Crimes against humanity. Where's humanity? Who's humanity? You? Me? Did you see a crime committed against you ? Hey, just a millions Rwandans .
Did you ever hear about the genocide convention?"
I said I had.

"that convention," the American at the bar said, "is makes a nice wrapping for a cheese sandwich." - Phillip Gourevitch

En Un Solo

2010-02-25T21:16:00.000-08:00

Lyrics for Taylor (liberally translated to make sense in english)
Sitting in the back of the bar
I shyly invite you to dance
you smile as you accept
we dance bachata, merengue, bolero
speaking softly colliding bodies
cupid is shooting arrows eh eh
End the party everyone went home
I'm going with your face pressed into the soul
and I don't know you well and I start to wonder.

It seems that I falling love with you in one day
I'm missing you and it feels like years that I've known you
It seems that in one dance I gave you my life,

this is a very very very good thing

2010-02-20T01:30:00.000-08:00

i would like all of you to listen to this song, especially morgan... it is a good "shittiness barrier" song (by shittiness barrier i mean your theory of things can only get so bad before they get better... this song isn't necessarily a version of that, it's just... it works. go with it.)

it is beautiful

another catharsis song, perhaps

2010-02-18T21:46:00.000-08:00

"You put your heart out there like that, it's liable to just turn into this blackened carbon brick in a barbecue sauce of shame and rage. And two hot people with a perfect relationship would not understand that."

pop perfection

2010-02-16T11:56:00.000-08:00

:)

2010-02-01T20:46:00.000-08:00

i can't stop listening to it.

"everyone wins"

2010-01-30T15:47:00.000-08:00

i love!

right now, i wish i could follow you.

2010-01-24T22:52:00.000-08:00

the mykaila and greta song:

i miss her more than i could have ever expected to

2010-01-22T10:27:00.000-08:00

say you're sorry, i can take it

********************

all in all it wasn't bad, all in all it wasn't good, but i still care

that's the problem with the days, they're never long enough to say what it is you never said

although a tear may be ever so, that's the time you must keep on trying

2010-01-21T09:42:00.001-08:00

such a beautiful song.
smile by robert downey jr. i love him.

in other news, i just spent an hour plus failing my math midterm.

and. i plan to sell donuts on a beach in barcelona when i graduate.

all the times that i've cried, keeping all the things i knew inside

2010-01-20T22:59:00.000-08:00

i've been thinking about catharsis lately.

what a great word... catharsis.

i think it is what it is.

(bankrupt on selling; father and son; all god's angels; that year; goodnight; more; emily; blue jeans and white t-shirts; the con; leave; fake... if you want to know)

there's only 1 thing 2 do, 3 words, 4 youuuu

2010-01-20T14:24:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU

I had a dream last night that Cooper commented on my status on Facebook. I've been having SO MANY DREAMS about Facebook and MySpace. WHY? WHY WHY? Can someone interpret that for me? No where I've looked has been able to tell me anything.
Maybe I should just lay off the social networking.

In any case. Love love love.

girl inform me

2010-01-19T19:31:00.000-08:00

haven't done a playlist in a while, feast your ears (that sounds weird)

leave - the swell season
that year - brandi carlile
you belong to me - jason wade
father & son - cat stevens
bankrupt on selling - modest mouse

Top 4 ponderings of tonight

2010-01-13T20:56:00.000-08:00

1. I wonder if Fenoli will ever talk about sexuality.
2. Leaving for Utah tomorrow night. (No, not rehab or boarding school. Skiing with the big brudder.) SO PUMPED, CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU HOW PUMPED I AM.
3. Remembering John the Lion and how the music in his car made my blood pump harder.
4. Da boss. Da boss da boss da boss. What a boss.

love.

"Become What You Are"

2010-01-12T13:11:00.000-08:00

working on my history paper I came across this definitely worth taking a few min to watch.

my do I love Desmond Tutu !

"If you are responsible for most of the mess you are responsible to clean it up!...If you were able to bale out the banks billions and billions and billions and billions and billions so please just give us a few billion to enable the poor to use alternative fuel. They can't do it if you ask them to pay for it. For your own sakes rich people, for your children's sake, for the sake of our wold, be nice and .. pay up!" - Desmond Tutu

right now

2010-01-10T11:54:00.000-08:00

right now is a tough time for me.
i need to remember to take care of me, of numero uno.
but at the same time, i need to repair these relationships that i've fucked over with my buttheadedness over the last year.

for anyone on here who's felt that, i'm sorry guys. i'm working on it.

i love you.

three interesting current events

2010-01-08T11:22:00.000-08:00

When Will White People Stop Making Movies Like "Avatar"?
Critics have called alien epic Avatar a version of Dances With Wolves because it's about a white guy going native and becoming a great leader. But Avatar is just the latest sci-fi rehash of an old white guilt fantasy.

Dearborn students' sweatshirts stir outrage, controversy
The sweatshirts show Edsel Ford High School's mascots flying at an “11” made to look like buildings, and were worn by nine students, all of whom are of Arabic decent. (Dearborn Public Schools)

Chinese director's Dalai Lama doc pulled from film festival
Film authorities pulled Lu Chuan's Palm Springs International Film Festival after pressure to toe line

lavando las manos

2010-01-08T10:33:00.001-08:00

i was just thinking about a story my cousin told me this holiday, which she heard from her gynecologist:

a nun came in with THE WORST CASE OF HERPES dr. vbh had ever seen.

the nun had never had sex.

she probably picked up the virus on her hands when she was doing something and then transferred it to her AHEM while wiping...

moral of the story: wash your hands BEFORE AND AFTER using the bathroom.

yeah.

studying for bio?

2010-01-07T19:01:00.000-08:00

click here

1000

2010-01-06T12:10:00.001-08:00

I am claiming this post- there will be something here soon

mykaila: i have administrative power to edit anything and everything that goes on this blog... i have never used it until now but DAMN YOU MORGAN

dude not cool, we will have to share the post

ideas?

no idea as long as i get to post in ORANGE.

um...?

alright but I get a cool color too I just need to figure out how to do that...

DRUGS SUCK

2010-01-06T10:49:00.000-08:00

hairy ass balls.

FUCKIN A.
if you're wondering why i feel kind of dismal about stuff sometimes
or if you're curious as to why i chopped the dreads
that's why.

love.

becoming who we are

2010-01-02T21:28:00.000-08:00

I feel like we are beginning the rest of our lives
we have all the possibility in the world open to us

our decisions are just beginning to matter,
just starting to affect the rest of our lives

we are in positions to do almost anything we want to
and we have to much yet to do with our lives

tour jete (haha)

2009-12-29T23:41:00.000-08:00

It's finally happening! I leave for France New Year's Eve and I can hardly believe it! I really loved morgan's blog from her exchange so I thought I would try to make one too...

WARNING: I do not happen to be as technicalogically advanced as the average person. It took me about 2 hours to figure out how to change the color scheme.The fonts are still way beyond me. I can't promise that I will every actually get around to writing, but that is the plan as of now, 2 days before departure.

Here is the url...
http://notreprochainrencontre.blogspot.com/

I think that's all you need. If anyone at school, in the park, at the grocery store, etc. is curious about what im up to....go ahead and share it with them! :) I hope it will be interesting enough to read ;)

Je vous aime!

out of control

2009-12-26T21:16:00.000-08:00

funny thing, control. sometimes when you're in control, you don't feel like you are and flounder to "regain" it, when really you're just psyching yourself. sometimes when you're in control, you are perfectly aware and content and just FEEL in control. and it's good. sometimes when you're in control, you overestimate the amount of control you have, and slip without noticing because you still think things are fine and dandy. and it's not so good. that projects you into out of control.
sometimes when you're out of control, you don't even realize it. actually many times you don't; especially when it applies to indulgence (say, turkey on thanksgiving) or addiction (say, ecstasy in the middle of the week). but when you realize it, it's quite the hit in the face. sometimes when you're out of control you don't want to admit it, because that would be admitting a weakness, or admitting the amount of work required to regain control. sometimes when you're out of control you are very very aware; in this situation there can be a sense of alarm and hopelessness, or a sense of unusual serenity. sometimes when you're out of control, you recognize it and know exactly what to do.
so weird.

:)

2009-12-23T23:19:00.000-08:00

my morgan is coming home
my morgan is coming home
i missed her (selfishly) and she is

finally coming home!

es un comenzo ... es un final (8)

2009-12-21T08:35:00.000-08:00

clothes dangling out of half empty drawers
are thrown to the floor
a girl sits amongst the disaster sorting it into piles
a haphazardly stuffing mounds of chlothes in to a suitcase
she laughs to herself as she realizes that there is no way everything will fit
is this really three months of her life
three months of belongings are packed so quickly?
she sits for a moment shocked,

it's really ending

and coming home is just begining

my priorities are fucked up

2009-12-15T23:38:00.000-08:00

sleep tonight
religion homework tomorrow instead of handbells
i'm sorry guys, it's not like i play more than 7 notes anyways.
next semester i'll do better.

wooof i need break.

porque se extrano

2009-12-11T16:32:00.000-08:00

SO here's the deal

I miss you and am home in less than two weeks
por DIOS tengo hacer un MONTON de cosas!
anyway....I miss you all so the plan is a PI get together at my house I am thinking pumpkin pie should be involved let me know availibility, especially important because the is the last time all of PI will be in the country for a long time!

on an unrelated note when you have less than 7GB of space left on your hard drive they give you these annoyong notifications

Mykaila- this song makes me thing of that day

Home in about a week.

2009-12-10T18:52:00.000-08:00

I miss you all.

this one time last january waiting at a coffee shop downtown for morgan to arrive

2009-12-10T17:41:00.000-08:00

that's what i associate this song with

it's sort of what i live by?

need a round 2

2009-12-09T12:45:00.000-08:00

plskthxbai

JFC!!!

2009-12-08T09:23:00.001-08:00

so i have been doing image searches looking for what my cyst looks like (i've only seen it in ultrasound form)

and i stumbled upon this.

how one can not know that they have a 93-POUND CYST ON THEIR OVARY is simply beyond me.

(owwwwww.)

anyway.

this is an ultrasound of a hemorrhagic ovarian cyst:

complete your turns

2009-12-07T12:10:00.000-08:00

i made it through my first weekend of ski instructor training.
-43 degrees with the wind chill. 60 mph winds. skiing nonstop from 9am-4:30pm (after the lifts kicked us out :P)
my group was of about 7, reeaally wide spectrum of abilities.
yesterday was mostly norm (our clinician for the weekend) instructing us, taking us back to the basics so we could understand what we would be teaching other people. it blew my mind...so much of it.
i can't really focus enough right now to describe how intensely it blew my mind. i knew how to do things, i just didn't understand the philosophy of normal skiing. i'd been trained differently and knew how to teach the "normal" edge-to-edge turns, as opposed to edge-flat-edge to make a curved c shape. we were each given something to work on; norm didn't give me much to work on compared to a few of us, but mine was to complete my turns instead of shooting straight down. again, what i was taught to do: the faster and straighter the better. anyway.
it was awesome.
i hurt, i went numb, i completed my turns, i made friends with some awesome people, i made friends with some attractive people (:
i love snowboarders :P
anyway.
it was awesome.
i'm excited for next weekend.

love.

YAYAYAYAYAYAYA

2009-12-04T09:37:00.000-08:00

GRETA GETS HERE IN ONE MONTH

JUST 31 DAYS

YESSSSSSSSSSSS

also, i'm gonna be a host sister.

2009-12-02T20:18:00.000-08:00

salamtik

2009-12-02T19:41:00.000-08:00

so, i've gotten some questions about what went down last night, and i want to share in a way that multiple people can access and i can access later.

so, here are the details:

i've been having stomachaches and a general feeling of unwell-ness for about six weeks. the stomachaches were in my lower abdomen, usually on the right side. sometimes panic feelings would accompany the stomachaches. my last period, which happened during this time, was the worst i've ever had, in terms of pain and discomfort. (seem unrelated? read on.)

yesterday i was especially aware of my stomachache. i took the school bus, stopped at home and changed my clothes, and headed to my driver's ed drive. during this time, the ache started to get worse, and at about 6:45 the gradual increase in my pain sped way up. my mom picked me up at 7:15. the first words i said to her when i got in the car were "i have to go to the doctor." i described my pain to her... it was the kind of pain that makes you want to vomit. i thought i was going to throw up (or die). we got home at about 7:30. i flopped onto the couch (the first piece of furniture when you walk into my house) and started to cry. it hurt to sit, stand, walk, lay down... both of my parents have had appendicitis (my mom when she was pregnant with me), and so they were especially concerned. my symptoms matched appendicitis symptoms. i started getting really worried. my mom called our clinic, and it just so happened that our family doctor was on call. she recommended that i be taken to the emergency room. so away we went, my mom and i. we arrived at children's and did a lot of waiting. i was finally admitted, and we did some more waiting. the first doctor i saw gave me an idea of what was going to happen. she said it was unlikely that i had appendicitis, but they did think that there was something going on. she said that i might have to have a cat scan, an ultrasound, or even-gasp-a pelvic exam (just shoot me). i did a lot more waiting, and a few more doctors and nurses examined me. they also asked for a clean urine sample... knowing that i hadn't had anything to drink since the morning (i was finally able to give them that sample, even though it took me a while to get the focus). after some more waiting around and answering questions, one of my doctors came in and told me that i'd be getting an ultrasound (not a pelvic exam! yippee!). she gave me a few cups for water, and told me to drink all i could. my nurse then came in and gave me a few bottles of gatorade to drink. i drank everything... about 2.5 liters. then they had me wait around in my room for two and a half hours. after the first 90 minutes, i was in so much pain. if you ever want to torture yourself, that is what i recommend. i couldn't sit, stand, or walk properly. finally, the ultrasound tech arrived (she was on call and got woken up, the poor thing. i'm not mad at her, i'm irritated at the doctors who didn't call her sooner, after the first 105 minutes when i was ready). they brought me a wheelchair and wheeled me to the room. then i got my first ultrasound. it was fine, just long and uncomfortable when i already thought i was dying. i shed more tears about my full bladder than i shed about my stomachaches. then i got to pee. it was the MOST satisfying thing ever... it didn't take much to fill my second urine sample of the evening, haha. the liquid was freely flowing for quite a while. then i got another ultrasound with my newly empty bladder. it was way more comfortable... almost enjoyable... without the pain of holding 2.5 liters in. my mom and i went back to my exam room and waited for about 5 minutes. then another nurse came in and told me what was up. a hemmorhagic ovarian cyst. ouch. they're not uncommon and usually not unsafe. they're just painful. we waited another hour and then finally went home. i got home at about 4 am. i ate a piece of toast with strawberry jelly (my first food since my small lunch at 11:30) and went to bed. i've been sleeping all day.

so, there that is.

happy birthday cooper! here's to you.

2009-12-02T09:59:00.000-08:00

:)

love you bud.

lyrics of the day: she belongs to me by bob dylan

2009-11-30T18:39:00.000-08:00

She's got everything she needs,
She's an artist, she don't look back.
She's got everything she needs,
She's an artist, she don't look back.
She can take the dark out of the nighttime
And paint the daytime black.

You will start out standing
Proud to steal her anything she sees.
You will start out standing
Proud to steal her anything she sees.
But you will wind up peeking through her keyhole
Down upon your knees.

She never stumbles,
She's got no place to fall.
She never stumbles,
She's got no place to fall.
She's nobody's child,
The Law can't touch her at all.

She wears an Egyptian ring
That sparkles before she speaks.
She wears an Egyptian ring
That sparkles before she speaks.
She's a hypnotist collector,
You are a walking antique.

Bow down to her on Sunday,
Salute her when her birthday comes.
Bow down to her on Sunday,
Salute her when her birthday comes.
For Halloween give her a trumpet
And for Christmas, buy her a drum.

This Is Ostromdom: Part III

2009-11-29T20:18:00.000-08:00

A series of tweets from most recent to oldest:

watching kourtney kardashian at the obgyn. "oh my god... you're actually gonna be a mom." -@kaitlyndianefay

10:46 PM Nov 27th from txt

we watched trash every night before sleeping... we also ate trash and drank diet coke.

"if you combine our fractions of judaism, we are one full jew together. which is why we're getting star of david tattoos."

9:20 PM Nov 27th from txt

--johanna talking about she and her sister and her dad

powell's city of books... can't beat this.

11:43 AM Nov 27th from txt

went with robb, autumn, david, ken, and my dad... we went for greasy chinese food afterwards.

we just watched reality hell. "i feel so... enriched..."

9:49 PM Nov 26th from txt

more watching trash. quote from alex.

sleeping in the bonus room times... love it. (:

9:24 PM Nov 26th from txt

slept in the bonus room with kaity, johanna, linnea, and sort-of alex.

laughing sooo hard. i love my family.

7:35 PM Nov 26th from txt

we watched tons of old family movies. so freakin' hilarious.

august 2, 1999: the day johanna called me a hypocrite.

6:51 PM Nov 26th from txt

family video date + memories of that day on a beach in ireland

johanna just told me that we're going to mexico with everyone for my 18th? hahahahahahaha

1:35 PM Nov 26th from txt

"we're [mykaila, kaitlyn, johanna, aunt debbie, aunt sonja, my mom] going to mexico for mykaila's 18th." it was just a statement of fact...

"aunt sonja, will you get me my beer and champagne?"

1:19 PM Nov 26th from txt

kaitlyn drinking all kinds of things.

"we're out of beer." "what the hell?!"

12:15 PM Nov 26th from txt

hahahahahaha

robb has arrived, yessss.

12:11 PM Nov 26th from txt

he took over the kitchen... cooking is his passion.

there are 4 people in the bathroom right now. 1 is in the shower, 1 is pooping, 1 is blowdrying her hair, and the last is typing this tweet.

9:44 AM Nov 26th from txt

um yeah. epitome of ostromdom. too much information.

"well i smell something... bad breath or bad fart."

9:30 AM Nov 26th from txt

we're really sensitive to smell.

"every time i look up at mykaila, i think it's me."

9:29 AM Nov 26th from txt

johanna. crazy girl.

sleeping in a creaky loft bed with my favorite person

10:27 PM Nov 25th from txt

:D chillin' in linnea's room

LINNEA IS FINDING MORE GRAY HAIRS... FML

6:58 PM Nov 25th from txt

she blowdried and styled my hair. no haircut for me... ):

it was all part of the makeover.

"is that jesus?" "no, it's a beetle."

2:31 PM Nov 25th from txt

hahahaha. speaks for itself.

i love my cousins. glovebox contents: 2 powerbars and a tube of mascara.

2:10 PM Nov 25th from txt

true story.

because i'm not interested in food at the moment, my grandma is telling me how healthy her nut bread is. fat-free, brown sugar... hahahahaha

12:38 PM Nov 25th from txt

my grandma thinks i'm concerned about my body... i just wasn't hungry. typical grandma move?

entering tualatin :D

11:35 AM Nov 25th from txt

just crossed the columbia. in oregon now, just a few short minutes left!!

11:08 AM Nov 25th from txt

almost to olympia and still no traffic. if there is a god, it's loving on me today.

9:02 AM Nov 25th from txt

This Is Ostromdom: Part II

2009-11-25T18:59:00.000-08:00

I have so much love for my family.

Photobooth, Diet Coke, SNL, "thorry", wet carpets, PEPPER YER BANANAS, what, you don't like incense?, the good the bad and the ugly, ours has a hole in it!, 711 spaghetti, "i like him, he likes me... it's okay that we don't believe the same thing right now, it's not going to last forever but it's for now and that's what's important", CHASE SMELLS LIKE CRAB, but what kind of music do you like?, ear piercings... haha linnea, you guys like scarves right? have you seen what we're wearing?, "snuggling to me means dutch ovens... lots of dutch ovens."

and i've been here for only 6.5 hours...

RASTA!

2009-11-24T21:24:00.000-08:00

me + katie mac + 2 special combs + 1 tub of wax + 4 hours = these bad boys

finally
there's no turning back now!

:)

I Wish That Without Me, You Couldn't Eat

2009-11-22T17:54:00.001-08:00

my grandparents are here; they came on friday night from kansas (yeah yeah wizard of oz and todo and all that). i have recently come to realize two things:

my mother is turning into my grandma
and my younger sister will eventually turn into my mother/my grandma

oh what a funny succession of maternal inheritence.

things i love #23698

2009-11-21T10:49:00.000-08:00

my grandma's facebook statuses.

a selection of my favorites:

Jeanette is learning how to facebook.
August 15 at 6:45pm

Jeanette My missing black cartigan sweater is 'on my mind'. I have looked everywhere. It has been a favorite of mine for at least 18 years. I'm sure many of you remember it. I'm offering a modest reward for any suggestion which leads to a find. P.S. I have checked the closets.
September 6 at 8:57am

Jeanette It looks like we'll be having dinner at Costco - Seattle. :-) Bob needs to have his glasses adjusted..... extravagant...but it is Saturday night!
October 3 at 4:13pm

Jeanette It was very good even though we forgot the wine. :-)
October 4 at 2:54am

Jeanette I'm about to fix a new (to me) diet soup. I've misplaced the recipe. It has 90 calories and left Diane Sawyer in a state of "drool" yesterday am on G.M. America....Glad it's on-line.:-)
October 16 at 8:20am

Jeanette Well, for years I followed Anthony Robinson's column in the P.I. and considered his thoughtful narrative, on selected subjects, worth reading. This commentary on the two mayoral candidates is a total waste of time....in my opinion.
October 14 at 11:42am

Jeanette Happy Birthday,dear Andy! It seems like just a week or so ago that you made your speedy entry into the world! Many happy returns to you, and much love XO
November 5 at 7:16am

Jeanette I didn't realize there were so many varieties of tiramisu! And it's too cold to go find some.
November 10 at 7:16pm

Jeanette Linnea - I'm happy to hear that the dye stains did come out of your wash! There will be no charge to you, honey.
Wed at 5:58pm

This Is Ostromdom: Part I

2009-11-19T21:48:00.000-08:00

Last year, I had that ridiculously lengthy Thanksgiving recap. This year, I'm going to do a bunch of shorter installments, because I love my family and I love Thanksgiving and I love to share. You don't have to read any of them, though you might find a few laughs (:

Here's the first:

---FACEBOOK MESSAGE---

Subject: Family trivia!
Between Katie (mom), Alex (brother), Linnea (cousin), Johanna (cousin), David (uncle), Sonja (aunt), Deb (aunt), Kenneth (uncle), Kaitlyn (cousin), Andy (cousin), Jeanette (grandma), Bob (grandpa) and You (only missing Tom, Robb, Autumn, and Stephanie... Stephanie added me today, the others don't have Facebook... they are the only ones left...)

Mykaila - November 18 at 9:45pm
Hey guys,
Family trivia this year is going to be FAVORITE BOOKS. We're going to have you write your favorite book down on a slip of paper on Thanksgiving and do a matching type of thing... you don't have to do anything now except think about it!
Andy, if you and Stephanie want to participate too, there is an absentee option... let me know. (:
If someone would please let Robbie and Autumn know what's up, that would be great.
I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving!
Love,
Mykaila

Sonja - November 18 at 10:53pm
I guess the appropriate prize for the winner should be a trip to Powell's!

Kaitlyn - November 18 at 11:26pm
eye dontt reed buks n e morr

Johanna - November 19 at 9:28am
eye donet red dem eether

Bob - November 19 at 10:15am
I'm appalled that our 2 g-kids in college don't read books! And, I don't think the winner should get a trip to Powell's, the loser should (either that or a gift wrapped copy of "Going Rouge" by Sarah Palin.

Sonja - November 19 at 7:23pm
We would somehow need to get a copy of the book without paying for it, since we don't want to fill her coffers!

Jeanette - November 19 at 8:02pm
Walmart has them for ten dollars. They will eventually get them at a dollar store - just be patient. :-)

Mykaila - November 19 at 9:16pm
I bet there are a few on eBay already... Craigslist maybe??

Kaitlyn - November 19 at 9:45pm
I bet if we look in some trash cans, we'll find a few. It's more sustainable to read used books anyway.

hey cousins (:

2009-11-17T15:04:00.001-08:00

150 L3S POPULATED THE WHOLE WORLD

November has come

2009-11-16T20:21:00.000-08:00

my black eyes
pounding on my eyelids, fighting
to be released, but
I want to hold them captive for just one more dream
It's times like this when I would have said
everything is too dramatic, but
now that my lips are sewn shut, I'm
getting used to screaming with
just my eyes
my black eyes

plays pretty for a baby, by saosin
2nd period: shoot down the stars, by gym class hero's

CHICAS (y Cooper)

2009-11-16T15:10:00.000-08:00

(for some reason typing in spanish I use a lot more caps, que raro)

I feel like it's been FOREVER,
well actually a month since I talked to you all

I miss you all!

(and always love facebook messages with news *nudge nudge wink wink*)

GOOD SONG

2009-11-16T14:00:00.000-08:00

she makes me happy.
i love adele.

there must have been some confusion

2009-11-16T13:12:00.000-08:00

here is the new link to my blog (it's the same blog, just with changes)

i didn't realize that everything stopped showing up on the follower feeds...

i've been posting this way for a few weeks i think.

sorry about that!

hmm...

2009-11-15T17:01:00.000-08:00

Ms. Seaton has no right to ask us to choose just 2 songs as our "favorites" for homework.....How do you do that? I feel like I am picking which of my children I love the most and telling the others they just aren't cutting it.

Heartbreaking....truly heartbreaking...

Makes me curious though...if you had to pick 2 favorites what would they be?

i see

2009-11-13T10:58:00.000-08:00

i see my feet splayed out in front of me
i see the circles beneath my eyes despite hours and hours of sleep
i see my hip bones becoming more prominent, just in time for them to get covered up again
i see mykaila's conch shell bag on the counter in front of me
i see inside his eyes, but not inside his mind
i see your smile, directed at someone else
i see your need for space, and i see my feet moving as i back away
i see your pupils and they're forbidden
i see everything
so what am i missing?

board of trustees

2009-11-13T10:54:00.000-08:00

maybe it would have been better if i had not gotten it

maybe

I LOVE TEEN TIX IN EVERY WAY EVER

2009-11-09T19:09:00.001-08:00

"Mykaila O. takes a break from her history paper to fall in love with author Lydia Davis and thinks you should too."

yessss (:

lydia davis is fabulous.

2009-11-08T19:36:00.000-08:00

i highly recommend her writing (for when you get the chance).

i went to her lecture last week.

here's a poem of hers, called "Head, Heart":

Heart weeps.
Head tries to help heart.
Head tells heart how it is, again:
You will lose the ones you love. They will all go. But even the earth will go, someday.
Heart feels better, then.
But the words of head do not remain long in the ears of heart.
Heart is so new to this.
I want them back, says heart.
Head is all heart has.
Help, head. Help heart.

not my FAVORITE by her but it's pretty good (:

(my favorite, if you ever stumble across it, is the third of her "Three Letters of Complaint". it is the one addressed to a frozen peas manufacturer. but... i still have not read very much by her.)

Undzer shtetl brent

2009-11-08T19:31:00.000-08:00

My new favorite song...

http://www.ushmm.org/museum/exhibit/online/music/detail.php?content=burning

At least something good came out of writing this history paper, right?

snow in the mountains

2009-11-07T21:02:00.000-08:00

I am trying my best to appreciate the season...I bitch about winter all the time and so I really need to stop...I just hate the dark so fucking much, all I want to do is sleep.

I am stopping as of now, if you catch me complaing again will you pleasepleaseplease stop me. Just keep reminding me that there is snow in the mountains or something.

Tomorrow is Today

2009-11-07T15:52:00.000-08:00

I wanna feel the car crash
cause Im dying on the inside.

I was never good at goodbyes
Can I swallow this bottle whole
so this brain in my head can forget your face

fuck high school
fuck high
fuck

thank you taylor :)

2009-11-06T11:13:00.000-08:00

it's friday, guys!!!!!!
and i am pretty pleased, if i do say so myself. i'm liking this weather, not gonna lie. it's getting me pumped for ski season, and if you by any chance haven't heard me blathering about it already, I'M GOING TO BE A SKI INSTRUCTOR AT CRYSTAL THIS SEASON!
my juju place is up there. i'm hoping it'll be a good winter. fingers crossed!

in any case.
some feel good music, if you've had a tough week. "my life" by warrior king.

or if you haven't had a tough week. just for some happies.

i love you all!

ma cherie, olivia

2009-11-03T19:54:00.001-08:00

UMMM....not so much....

okay, well you can look it up toi-meme! haha

here are some french songs courtesy of my exchange student, Capucine, from Nantes...she went home this weekend :(

La Lettre-Renan Luce (my personal favorite...i can translate it si tu veux, its really adorable...he gets this misdelivered letter from a girl thats pregnant, falls in love with her words and goes to meet her)
Les Voisines-Renan Luce (really funny..."When it comes to neighbors I always prefer girls...)
Mon Couer, Mon Amour-Anais (you really need to type this one into google translator to appreciate it)
ANYTHING by BB Brunes...they are the best...my favorites are "Dis Mois" (tell me) and "Perdus Cette Nuit" (lose the night)
Chewing Gum, Fraise-Karyne (no explication necessary...its kind of catchy, i dont know)
Comme Ca-PZK (newly popular in France...really funny)

Enjoy Olivia! :)

la musique

2009-11-03T19:52:00.001-08:00

okay...this is my attempt to post a youtube the way olivia taught me...technology and i have a love hate relationship...

this will just be a test

for everyone, especially cooper

2009-11-03T12:29:00.000-08:00

recommended to me a year ago by a certain miles
i love it

A whole new winter

2009-11-02T21:05:00.000-08:00

Hey world
I know you are trying to kill me now but
I seem to be kicking your ass this time and
to tell the truth I am happy.

Amber, by 311.

I know you probably won't look it up.
But this song explains the world.

Reggaeton has a softer side

2009-11-02T17:24:00.001-08:00

one of my fave songs ;)

CLIC CLIC CLIC!!

Lyrics:
El amor es una magia.
Una simple fantasia.
Es como un sueño,
Y al fin lo encontre.

Es como una luz,
Que se esparce por el alma,
Y recorre como el agua,
Hasta que llena el corazon.

Y va creciendo y creciendo,
Como nubes en el cielo,
Dando vueltas por el mundo,
Es increible, asi es el amor,
Y al fin lo encontre (x2)

El amor te ciega,
Aunque aveces te engaña.
El amor es pureza,
Si es que a alguien tu amas.
El amor te atrapa,
Y de el nunca escaparas.
Solo tienes que aprender a amar, amar.

Y va creciendo y creciendo,
Como nubes en el cielo,
Dando vueltas por el mundo,
Es increible, asi es el amor,
Y al fin lo encontre. (x2)

El amor te ciega,
Aunque aveces te engaña.
El amor es pureza,
Si es que a alguien tu amas.
El amor te atrapa,
Y de el nunca escaparas.
Solo tienes que aprender a amar, amar.

El amor es una magia.
Una simple fantasia.
Es como un sueño,
Y al fin lo encontre.

Es como una luz,
Que se esparce por el alma,
Y recorre como el agua,
Hasta que llena el corazon.

Translation:
(the best I can do- basically it's better in spanish)

Love is a magic.
A simple fantasy.
It's like a dream,
And at last I found it.

It's like a light,
That is spread by the soul,
And runs like water,
Until it fills the heart.

And growing and growing,
Like clouds in the sky,
Going round the world,
It is incredible, so is love,
And at last I found it (x2)

Love you blind
Although sometimes you fools.
Love is pure,
If someone that you love.
Love traps you,
And he never breaks.
You just have to learn to love, love.

And growing and growing,
Like clouds in the sky,
Going round the world,
It is incredible, so is love,
And at last I found it. (x2)

Love you blind
Although sometimes you fools.
Love is pure,
If someone that you love.
Love traps you,
And he never breaks.
You just have to learn to love, love.

Love is a magic.
A simple fantasy.
It's like a dream,
And at last I found it.

It's like a light,
That is spread by the soul,
And runs like water,
Until it fills the heart.

:D

2009-11-01T22:15:00.000-08:00

i spent most of this halloween contemplating how awesome my life is.
mi disfraz:

it was a year ago today that i started dating preston. SHIT!

i think i like a boy and i think i like this.
and, in closing:
"Be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. In the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.”
– Max Ehrmann

I want to hear about people's halloween costumes.

2009-11-01T12:26:00.001-08:00

i just noticed something about my morning self

2009-10-29T06:44:00.000-07:00

i put things on my head a lot

like pants, or a shirt, or my skirt. and i just leave them there until it's time to use them.

what the HECK?!?!

ATTENTION GUYS

2009-10-26T13:23:00.000-07:00

I HAVE A DREADLOCK

manquita

2009-10-26T13:21:00.001-07:00

for me?

ok morgan here is an update

2009-10-24T23:41:00.001-07:00

then michael asked me if i was okay on my facebook status which was really sweet

so we had a conversation in which he was really sweet

and then i went about my business

and i thought, "wow, why do i put up with bullshit when i've got friends who are really good good sweet people?"

and it was right then that i realized the answer's been there all along

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyÿÿÿ

2009-10-24T15:46:00.000-07:00

This
is
not
stupid like

high school
is.

High school
can
suck my
dick.
:P

2009-10-24T08:55:00.001-07:00

I miss you ladies (+ Cooper)

What's happening with you all?

post something/email me!

I'll Almost Miss You...

2009-10-18T10:09:00.000-07:00

"wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are"

-Kurt Cobain

as-tu déjà aimé?

2009-10-16T10:06:00.000-07:00

the past couple weeks:
i enjoy:
- les chansons d'amour
- conversing with kay during my free period
- my free period!
- dance (specifically getting the combinations!!)
- searching downtown with tona for quality hot chocolate
- thursdays with mckenna/the vampire diaries
- louis armstrong
- asked out to dinner
- RAIN & WIND & DARK
- snow at crystal
- french music
- planning
- comparing french to spanish and UNDERSTANDING
- making money

i don't enjoy:
- dark circles under my eyes
- current living situation

i contemplate:
- what if you had a furry tongue? even better, what if you had a tongue you could swing from things with?
- how crazy is it that there people who are not nerds like me, and DON'T pee themselves while watching x-men and who DON'T want to have powers like mystique or wolverine or jean grey?!?!?!!
- drawing a blank on the rest

love.